i feel so useless right now. if it wasn't for my sister, i would be crying my eyeballs out. just a simple meddling with the timetable also i cannot handle. i feel so so useless right now. my sister once said that i was the stronger one. but i can assure her, she's the leader,the stronger one in the family. i only look as though i'm tough outside. but not so deep down, i'm just an ordinary weakling. i am and i'm ashamed of it.