happy new year!

its 2009. woosh how time flies. before we even realise it. it's a brand new year. brand new start. forget the past, look towards the future. urgh, i sound so mature.

i cant believe 2008 ended just like that. ahh at least i went out for a proper celebration instead of cooping myself at home, keeping track of who's online,and who's not. hahahah

i sound like a pathetic loser right. i admit, i am one. but who the hell cares??

anyway, i kicked start my 2009 by pushing the limits of my home rule. i broke my curfew =D which is bloody awesome because i used to be this timid mummy's girl. it isn't cool to be rebellious but it's okay to step out of the comfort zone once in a life. afterall, you only live once.

and i met this guy who's really hilarious and i am really looking forward to meeting these kinda people when i go abroad. funny, humorous, outgoing and rich.

coolest part is that he gets so comfortable with strangers, it feels as though i'd knew him since primary.

my first hour of 2009 was really eventful and i hope it remains exciting for the rest of the year...

new year's resolution??

lose weight!!!!
good results for the entire year!!!
get a boyfriend!!

thats allllll toodlesss..time for bed..:D

HAPPY NEW YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR<3

Va ca va ca va ca tion

Ahhh, new year's coming. This year's SO fast! It has been a helluva hectic year ( on a random note, i hate people using helluva, it's so mengada ada. But I just wanted to test the word out and yucks, so mengada ada)

So how was your 2008? Mine has been pretty good I shall say. I can't ask for more..New friends new environment. Was very refreshing. But I could have done better without O* in my class.

My resolution for 2008 was getting into XX university and losing 5 kgs.

XX university---checked
Losing 5kgs--- bring forward to 2009-.-


Adding 2 kgs in 2008---checked -____________________-

Hopefully I'll be out celebrating my new years and not rotting at home which is extremely sad!!! I WANNA BE COOL LAAAAA

I WANT A BOYFRIEND! I WANT MY NEW YEAR'S KISSSSS (french:P)

Okay, it's sounding a little too desperate=/

OH welllllll, hopefully 2009 would be more awesome than 2008 =D


MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

I was told...

that C* had a crush on me earlier this year. I knew about it. With the constant phone calls and smses every hour, every girl would have suspected as well. Even outsiders were sensing something was up. But I denied and it eventually faded off.

I was browsing through this random blog and I felt pretty much jealous when she wrote "C took me out for movies and dinner". How cliche is that??? But I was jealous. Still am jealous.

He took me out for movie once and we had a simple snack after that. That's about it. And after he became "cool", everything stopped. The phonecalls, the smses, even the webcam sessions we had on msn.

But I knew this was going to happen. He started smoking, drinking, clubbing....and that was a complete turned off for me. However, this tiny voice of mine wished that he had pursued his courting (on me, that is).

Yawn. Teenage drama.

Oh well, it's obvious he has a crush on this girl. She's gorgeous by the way.

But I'm smarter. BLEH. Brains over beauty > : (

I'm bitter

I'm sad..I'm bitter and I want to cry.
By far, the worst year ever:(
I can't wait to go abroad, and start a new batch of friends.

Hormonal

It sucks being a girl sometimes. You get hormonal every month. Also known as PMS. But us girls usually use this excuse for the extreme behaviour. I'm not giving any ideas for throwing fits whenever you like. But sometimes our hormones just go berserk and there we are, eating a whole tub of ice cream and stuffing our face with chocolates. It's not a pretty sight but you have to bear with it guys.

I'm currently awaiting my BUDDY to arrive and she hasn't which pisses me off! Every month, I would morph into a scary glutton and my emotions are unstable. It's really annoying. Now I'm feeling really worthless....unappreciated and fat. I turned down a few outings just cos I feel ugly and I don't have enough clothes to cover the ugly sight of me. I know this is bollocks. But really, the hormones are really getting to me. Oh friend, please drop by ASAP.

I want a boyfriend. I want one. I want to lie on his big muscular shoulder and I want to feel every heartbeat of his.

I want to be pampered and I want to pamper him... I want him to kiss my forehead whenever I'm feeling ugly,worthless and fat. I want him to tell me I'm beautiful.

Unfortunately, I have huge commitment issues and I feel that every guy does not deserve me. I think so highly of myself. Okay, you see this ranty post?? Blame it on the hormones alright?? Why can't guys have period! Don't you dare say " Because we have to support a family and it's inconvenient for us to have blood dripping out of our penises"

OHHHH as though ladies can't be breadwinners !??! We have red gooey stuff flowing out our vagina and I don't see them complaining!

THIS IS SO UNFAIR.. We constantly have to look good. Which reminds me, I have a friend who was talking about how appalled he was by the way I eat. What, I'm a girl with big appetite. You have a problem with that??? Anyway, he was reminding me that those calories are gonna hurt my (already) huge thighs. So I said the same thing to him ( he had a heavy lunch btw)...and to my horror he replied " It's okay, I'm a guy. It's okay to be fat"

LIKE WHOAAA??!? Who said so?? Who set that rule???

No! Guys are supposed to be lean and muscular.....

HMPHHHHHHHH

Omg.. I can't stand the hormonal me. Somebody, tell me a joke. Make me laugh. BOOHOOOHOOO

You know what..

disgusts me. Bloody merciless snatch thieves. Especially drunken ones who attack their prey with full force.

This is a true story.

Just a few hours ago, an innocent passerby was on her way home. Little did she now she was trailed by some lifeless drunken muthafucker. Not one, not two but four comfortably seated in 2 motorbikes. They attacked her from the back, hitting her forehead with a vodka bottle. Not the pussy 7-eleven vodka. But the thick vodka bottle. Something like a Jack Daniels bottle.

It smashed into tiny pieces. Almost debris-like. Yes, they were as merciless as that. Bloody muthafucker. I would not state the race of those idiots but I hope they burn in hell. I never liked those people. Smelly, ugly and disgusting.Fortunately, the victim was only bleeding on her forehead without any other severe injury. She was still able to walk on her own. Tough stuff.

Though she screamed for help. Us being typical Malaysians wouldn't dare to step out of their respective homes to offer a hand. Why? Scared those bastards whack the heck out of us lah. Thats why. We're are so selfish it disgusts me. I disgust myself. And I despise those lifeless fuckers who seek pleasure by torturing others.

Get a life geez

Holy crap

I'm so fucking scared it's not even funny...

Wish me luck readers, fucking results are out by morning.

The thought of it makes me tummy lurch : (

Ahh I swear to god, I'll work my ass off if I get the uni of my choice!!

I PROMISE:(:(


why do i have a bad feeling that I'm not going to be able to enter XX University????

This sucks ball

WTH

wth wth wth why is everybody asking me out now!??!

Okay on tuesday. I have to ffk my transporter friend H because my best friend is coming back! Of course i gotta set my priorities right! I can't be ditching my best friend for someone whom i've only known for a few months?? But my conscience is killing me cause he fetches me home after tuition and it's as though I'm using him only. Which is quite true but NAH i still have a conscience.

And IF i oblige to the outing my best friend suggested, I cant be going out with another transporter and this dude which i dont really care about. But this particular female transporter sends me to college but Im paying her la so whatever...

Ahhhh and on wednesday this dude who sits the same transport to college which happens to be that female transporter's ( i shall name her W*) classmate..asked me out with his other classmates. I can go for this one but I got a slight tingling feeling that uhm W* won't be very happy if I go cause you know I'm not from her class and stuff. Abit awkward la you know.

So rejecting W's classmate was really tough! Cause I kinda think he's hot and we met at some secluded place that I've never heard of. Could it be fate?! Hahahah I dont know. So happen that the place we met is called "Lover's Bridge" . Coincidence much???

And then, the guy whom I went out on a date with asked me out on Saturday. I can go, but I don't want to again because I made a pledge not to meet him this week? But his invitation was erm random. And I don't feel so bad rejecting him as much as W's classmate

Okaayy I think Y* (the guy I dated few days back) has a crush on me =/

He just said " Do i have a chance??"

Oh god. This is not the time!

Glad

I feel like ranting my heart out. I know I'm not in the position to do so. Since it's my day and I have another 15 minutes. Why not?
The thing is, I expected A* to surprise me with something today but he didn't!!!! At least visit me or something lah. But HE DIDN'T.

I know i know, I have no feelings for him and I'm expecting him to do such stuff for me. Quite bitchy. Ahhh nothing happened at all!! I was patiently waiting for him to arrive with a bouquet or roses or at least a simple gift but NADA!

And my "best friends" fell asleep when they were supposed to "surprise" me. Argh so angry. I was anticipating their arrival. Dressed up in sparkly cheongsam top and stuff...the next thing I know was a sms saying that his lovely ( disgustingly obnoxious) girlfriend is napping. OMG pissing off or not????

AHHh and now my actual best friend is hinting to me to tell her boyfriend she wants to go to the place this guy planned for my birthday! I dont let!!!

She's not as pretty as I am!! And she has a boyfriend. I know i'm not supposed to say that cause she's my bestest friend ever but still!!! It's so unfair. She gets all the guys she's interested in and I don't even stand a chance!!!! : ( And it's my big day but there's nothing eventful!!!

IM VERY SAD NOW OKAY

yappy yappy

Though i've reached the age of "maturity", I feel nothing less like a child. Sitting back at home. Self reflecting.

These holidays, the time for myself is so limited. I can't sit and ponder on my future and what not.

On this very special occasion, I've decided to stay home, and rot (haha).
Catch up on stufff that I've promised to accomplish. Hello, time to bear the consequences of irresponsibility.

Ahhh, now all i need is a hot cup of milo and I'll hide myself in my little coop.

Oh and yapps yapps :)

Turnover

Okay the date went well. I was impressed on how spontaneous he can get. And how comfortable he made me feel. However. Yes, there's always a bad side for everything. He spoiled the whole thing by smsing A*....And my instincts are telling me that A*'s pretty damn pissed off.

and the worst part. HE can be so insensitive of how A*'s feeling. IT makes me smile. =S

What the fuck is wrong with me. Am I that attracted to bad boys???

I do admit he's better with the ladies but that's what players do!!


ARGH wake up you crazy woman. A* has been waiting all year and this dude just came into your life for few months, and you're already crazy over him!!!! INSANEEEEEE > : (

Big girl already ah!

I cant believe what I am about to commit myself.
I'm going on a date with this guy who looks like a faggot in my high school.
I'm not desperate. I'm just bored. Hahahah this is worse than randomly adding people on facebook.
Ohmygod.

Tomorrow will so be awkward can die. I feel like backing out right now. I'd rather be bored at home than to watch HORROR (most probably) movie with a stranger...

Why do I keep doing thissssss -______________-


Errrrr nothing wrong with taking chances right????


On a totally unrelated note, my best friend is so digging information for A* ...I'm just playing stupid because I AM a materialistic ho ;)