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Second post of the night.

Today was rather dramatic.

My best friend just got together with this guy.

My close friend is on the verge of breaking up with her boyfriend.

My close friend needs to consider this guy before accepting him.

While I am boyfriendless. Not that I can't have one. I have this perfect guy waiting for me. Just becuase I'm so shallow, I can't accept his physical flaws.

I hate to say this, but I want a boyfriend right now. I am feeling desperate and I need love. I want someone to care for me. I want someone to love me. I want someone to hug me when I'm sad .

My best friend isn't the prettiest girl on earth and neither is she the thinnest. But she accepted the guy for what he is. Even if he isn't the most good looking guy on earth. And ends up happily ever after. Really, she gave me a wake up call.

You can't always get what you want.

Today, A* picked me up, got down from the car, and escorted me in. He even bought my fav drink and it's on the other end of Earth (exaggerated). But you get my drift, it's quite a distance from my house.

And i didn't even thank him properly! Argh, sometimes I feel so unsure of what I'm feeling. One moment I like him, the next, I'm cold to him...

And when I'm cold, I'm super mean.

Two days ago, I was so cold to him, I completely ignored him and I was so sure that he was not the one and I dont give two fucks even if he was all blue and emo...

Just yesterday, the biggest event of the year, I left him alone BUT i did camwhore with him. Though I didnt entertain him much. At least we got picture of both of us : )

Now I'm confused all over again. I've warned myself to not allow desperation overpower my senses. And i've failed.


Oh just an update. Remember how i bitch about how B* was backstabbing me and mindfucking me??? Turns out that he is actually in loved with me and is jealous over the whole A*-liking-me drama. Since he's going back to his hometown in a day time, he figured its best to confesss. :S